I loved this, especially your graduation speech!!! It was so full of joy, wonder and love.
And my confession is that resentment is totally my sign to myself when I am feeling burned out. Also, I enjoyed Lakshmin's book and style of being in the world.
Thank you. I am realizing that sometimes I use my ancestral reverence practice to give myself a bit more self-compassion and self-love than I would otherwise feel comfortable doing. Somehow, midwesterners (maybe everyone) have gotten to the point where it's like, "you think nice things about yourself, who do you think you are".
I think most of us fall into resentment when we are overwhelmed. The first year of motherhood with two kids, wooooweee I was resentment central.
I haven't read Real Self Care yet, it is arriving from the used bookstore sometime this week.
Now that I have more control over how I spend my time, I don’t find myself feeling as much dread as I used to. But I do have things that I avoid, and underneath that avoidance is a touch of my old friend dread.
I think what makes it harder these days is actually that I don’t have a bad job to blame when I feel resistance so the shoulding has taken a completely different tone. I’ve been feeling a lot of shoulds about my Substack lately, for example. And yet! There is something I am doing on this platform, some idea I’m chasing — I don’t know exactly what it is, but I do know I’m not done with it yet. And I know that the way I’m going about it at the moment isn’t really working.
Maybe related: things have been really hectic lately. I’ve had 4 different client projects at different levels of engagement, this Substack, planning the family vacation all while rebranding my business and being available most afternoons for my 5 year old son. Today, a couple of those projects finally came in to land — and I felt a spaciousness that I haven’t felt in probably about a month. Oddly enough, I suddenly didn’t feel resentful about my writing goals.
I guess the lesson is that sometimes the problem is me 😅
Thanks for this Amy, sorry about the virus. Hope you’re out in the dirt right now!
Yeah, I heard him say dread and I was like "oh, bleep" it just put several important decisions into stark clarity. Since there were daily doses of dread for months, it's like oh this needs to be a long-term change.
I think you're on to something with the pressure of the time crunch just makes you feel like you have to be efficient, and to be efficient, then there's a proper way to do it and the shoulds get a foothold quickly.
I was out picking dandelion flowers today before my husband mows them over in the next few days. And playing in the dirt including making some sculptures is on the agenda for tomorrow.
I loved this, especially your graduation speech!!! It was so full of joy, wonder and love.
And my confession is that resentment is totally my sign to myself when I am feeling burned out. Also, I enjoyed Lakshmin's book and style of being in the world.
Thank you. I am realizing that sometimes I use my ancestral reverence practice to give myself a bit more self-compassion and self-love than I would otherwise feel comfortable doing. Somehow, midwesterners (maybe everyone) have gotten to the point where it's like, "you think nice things about yourself, who do you think you are".
I think most of us fall into resentment when we are overwhelmed. The first year of motherhood with two kids, wooooweee I was resentment central.
I haven't read Real Self Care yet, it is arriving from the used bookstore sometime this week.
Ugh the dread one!! THE DREAD one.
Now that I have more control over how I spend my time, I don’t find myself feeling as much dread as I used to. But I do have things that I avoid, and underneath that avoidance is a touch of my old friend dread.
I think what makes it harder these days is actually that I don’t have a bad job to blame when I feel resistance so the shoulding has taken a completely different tone. I’ve been feeling a lot of shoulds about my Substack lately, for example. And yet! There is something I am doing on this platform, some idea I’m chasing — I don’t know exactly what it is, but I do know I’m not done with it yet. And I know that the way I’m going about it at the moment isn’t really working.
Maybe related: things have been really hectic lately. I’ve had 4 different client projects at different levels of engagement, this Substack, planning the family vacation all while rebranding my business and being available most afternoons for my 5 year old son. Today, a couple of those projects finally came in to land — and I felt a spaciousness that I haven’t felt in probably about a month. Oddly enough, I suddenly didn’t feel resentful about my writing goals.
I guess the lesson is that sometimes the problem is me 😅
Thanks for this Amy, sorry about the virus. Hope you’re out in the dirt right now!
Yeah, I heard him say dread and I was like "oh, bleep" it just put several important decisions into stark clarity. Since there were daily doses of dread for months, it's like oh this needs to be a long-term change.
I think you're on to something with the pressure of the time crunch just makes you feel like you have to be efficient, and to be efficient, then there's a proper way to do it and the shoulds get a foothold quickly.
I was out picking dandelion flowers today before my husband mows them over in the next few days. And playing in the dirt including making some sculptures is on the agenda for tomorrow.
Felt this so deeply - thank you for writing it!
Thanks so much Katy. Glad it finds you where you are.