Yeah, it definitely kicked my butt. And in the moment you feel like the only person it happens to. Good question about my career. I took a 6 month LOA until October 1, I have only come back casual (like 1-2 shifts a month so far) so I am actively trying to figure out if I am continuing or transitioning out:)
For sure. I know that feeling. My intern year I stuck the artery while placing a central line and my senior left me for 10 minutes holding pressure on it all alone with the patient in the middle of the night. I felt like such a big failure in that time.
Glad you have space to figure out what you'll do next.
Oh, I did that once too. Took us a while to figure it out because he was so hypoxic and hypotensive. But being left alone during it would be an extra kind of suck.
These types of experiences are so formative. I'm glad you took time to think/process what you felt. It's important so you can keep going on.
I'm curious Amy do you still work as an ER physician or did you transition out of it?
Yeah, it definitely kicked my butt. And in the moment you feel like the only person it happens to. Good question about my career. I took a 6 month LOA until October 1, I have only come back casual (like 1-2 shifts a month so far) so I am actively trying to figure out if I am continuing or transitioning out:)
For sure. I know that feeling. My intern year I stuck the artery while placing a central line and my senior left me for 10 minutes holding pressure on it all alone with the patient in the middle of the night. I felt like such a big failure in that time.
Glad you have space to figure out what you'll do next.
Oh, I did that once too. Took us a while to figure it out because he was so hypoxic and hypotensive. But being left alone during it would be an extra kind of suck.
This one hit me pretty deep. Thank you for sharing the story and the advice.
Thank you. I'm glad it resonates. Shame is one of those things I think we can all relate to, but never talk about.