The resonance I feel with this post gives me hope that more women speak about this. Maybe it's because I'm rounding my 41st year next month, or that I'm a mother who felt lost her identity, or I'm just starting (in the past 3 years) to figure out who I am for the first time...but my current state is summation of the feelings you describe.
I'm happy to feel the solidarity of another on the same path. I really feel pretty evangelical about helping people understand what a big shift motherhood is, not just in how do I manage the logistics of caring for more, very dependent people, but more so in who I AM, what it means to tend a portal from the otherworld to this one and how that changed my views of feminine and feminism. I think it takes a MINIMUM of 3 years to traverse that, and I was totally unprepared for that. And isn't it interesting that COVID time is bringing this out of us too.
It's been a really fucked up time of life. There's been a lightness in gaining a deeper understanding of who I am contrasted by some of the darkest days of my life.
The resonance I feel with this post gives me hope that more women speak about this. Maybe it's because I'm rounding my 41st year next month, or that I'm a mother who felt lost her identity, or I'm just starting (in the past 3 years) to figure out who I am for the first time...but my current state is summation of the feelings you describe.
I'm happy to feel the solidarity of another on the same path. I really feel pretty evangelical about helping people understand what a big shift motherhood is, not just in how do I manage the logistics of caring for more, very dependent people, but more so in who I AM, what it means to tend a portal from the otherworld to this one and how that changed my views of feminine and feminism. I think it takes a MINIMUM of 3 years to traverse that, and I was totally unprepared for that. And isn't it interesting that COVID time is bringing this out of us too.
It's been a really fucked up time of life. There's been a lightness in gaining a deeper understanding of who I am contrasted by some of the darkest days of my life.